I hope everyone who passes by can endure me for saying so many nonsense words here……maybe I am just crazy, or say insane….

H.L. Mencken once said, “A man loses his sense of direction after four drinks; A woman loses hers after four kisses.” Is it unfair for women exclusively to involve in love? I am always afraid to be that kind of woman blind in love and afraid to be hurt thoroughly and afraid not to recognize myself eventually, so I have drawn several lines to guard my innermost.

Does it really work? I mean is my shining self-protective castle sound enough not to collapse. There goes a saying that it is impossible to love and to be wise. People all in love are fool. I want to be a smart girl as long as I live. Hence I stay out of that love maze. Once I immerse in love, I will be hit by the hard-core reality someday. No matter how long I am staying in blindness, whether it is 1 week, 4 years, 1 month, 2 months or even 1 day, I will rapidly regain my sight afterwards. Maybe I am too concerned about the destination and too picky bout my Mr. Right and overly cared about the commitment….well, maybe some sort of….but the point is that those are the elements make me up of. Without them, I can’t find my position to sustain.

However, reality is always going in the opposite way far from our fascinations. After all, we are not god, that’s to say, we can not undertake everything. Sometimes we just can wait here and accept what comes around and can not avoid the joke the fate plays. Therefore, I pray to God sincerely that next time please let me meet someone who is considerate, brilliant, tender, as well as adorable and believe in commitment also. Otherwise, ensure to make me blind forever, and never wake me up… I just want to enjoy the life that’s supposed to be and can not put up with any sort of torture any more. Please….